The journey to our Miracle!

There are women who become mothers without effort,
without thought,
without patience or loss,
And though they are good mothers and love their children,
I know that I will appreciate it more.
I will be better not because of genetics,
or money or that I have read more books,
but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.

I have longed and waited.
I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.

Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation,
are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.

I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover.
I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.

I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child,
knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him.
And that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream.

My dream will be crying for me.

I count myself lucky in this sense:
that God has given me this insight,
This special vision with which I will look upon my child,
that my friends will not see.

Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God Leads me to,
I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured.
I am a better wife, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.

I know disillusionment, as I have been betrayed by my own body.
I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.

I have prevailed.

I have succeeded.

I have won.

So now, when others hurt around me,
I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort.
I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely.
I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine,
And when life is beyond hard,
I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.

I have learned to appreciate life.

Yes, I will be a wonderful mother.

~Author Unknown ~