Another set back

Yes, its after the 27th, got the cramps already. Failed x1! what to do? Guess it never was in my hands anyway. Dont know how to feel anymore, at times feel so overwealmed with the amount of things I have to accomplish, and then sometimes just feel despair at the lost. Sick and tired of work already, just thinking of the next best thing to look forward too, and no its not dinner! but what is it? Maybe what I have been looking for all this while is just starring in front of my face. With the new year round the corner, resolutions? Havent thought of anything yet........Maybe its just better to try and learn to be contented with the existing.